A couple weeks ago I sent a fragment of the piece I've been working on to an old ex from years ago who is a writer. Today She sent me a reply.
"Not to sound like a complete dick, but I gave it to one of my
sub-editors to read (FYI, I'm a 'New Media Project Manager' and I can do
that). She said 'Filthy and self-indulgent, but not bad.' She also
said she keeps thinking about it but wishes she could stop. So there
you go. Also, she's smarter than… Continue
Added by Ry on August 31, 2010 at 8:48pm —
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I fall asleep again tonight after eating some chorizo and bread (and masturbating) Awake around 9:30 feeling refreshed and in a good frame of mind. Decide to go out and get some dinner. There is a plastic bag hanging on the outside of the door. Inside is a bottle of wine. A note is attached. " For Ryan. Welcome!!! Clea (girl next door)." I'm still not quite awake and assume Clea is the other violinist. Knock on the door to offer thanks. The girl with no shoes answers. I… Continue
Added by Ry on August 27, 2010 at 9:55pm —
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I moved over to my new place today. I now have 2 apartments until monday. Like it better. Same story. Loved the first one in Abesses, for a few days that is. Then was excited for this place. It is much larger though and beautful. A living room AND a bedroom. Nice hardwoods, high ceilings. Catherine is a violinist so there is a record player and a bunch of Bach and Mozart vinyls. An easier place to write in, live in, but I know I also say that because it is new. 2 stops… Continue
Added by Ry on August 27, 2010 at 1:53am —
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I show up at the Blue Sky last night already drunk. They are closing early this night so I go off with Erik the painter and the 2 proteges. We carouse all the night. All over Abbesses. Wherever, whoever, will let us drink, let us dance, whoever will allow the night to keep going... After spending the night with these people twice, I know this isn't for me. I'm a solitary man looking to be touched, but not able to take it. Erik, who's greatest art seems to be making… Continue
Added by Ry on August 25, 2010 at 7:51am —
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I think of Caveh upon waking. Did I have a dream? I haven’t thought about his films in a long time. I search him on Myspace. Write him. He tells me he is in Rome now on a fellowship. He was working on a Joyce adaptation, but now a horror film. Been there since September. Myspace actually be good for something...…
I walk over to Catherine’s place in a state of abject loneliness to pick up the key’s for her apartment and get instructions from her about various things about living there. How to use the washing machine, where the extra bedding is etc... Her friend from upstairs, who is also a violinist is there. They have just finished eating some Fois gras on toasted bread. Catherine pours me a glass of wine and asks me if I’d like some. I tell her that I’ve never eaten it. She cuts… Continue
Added by Ry on August 22, 2010 at 2:28am —
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We had great fun playing poker and hanging out and singing in the karaoke bar.
Big thanx to Tania for organising this and to PokerStars for providing the poker sets and the prizes/goodies.
Here is all the evidence I could come up with (for blackmail purposes)
( I got tired after this Downswing with Poker, i know that this Downswing is no big deal and i could recover it, but its the game that make me tired. I think it would be change more atractive if i gain more money on a…Continue
I used to view Tournaments as higher variance than cash. But it's obviously not the case for me anymore.
I cashed in 4 tournaments again today, and 6 yesterday. I find them less tilting than cash. They are being more consistent and less variance for me. I was playing mostly cash, with tournaments a couple days a week. But now, I'm going to reverse that. I'm going to play tournaments most days of the week, and only play cash when it suits me. It's only a matter of time before I take…
So things have taken a new turn since my last post. Have now (momentarily) ditched 6max in favour of playing HU SnG's. The reasons for this were mainly 6max seemed like a massive grind as I was in a downswing which I was struggling to keep to a breakeven run, but the fact I managed that gave me confidence in my game as I knew I was runing ridiculously below EV. In short, I just needed a break and the fun of HU play gave me just that. I intend to go back to 6max fairly soon though as I need…
I wake up around ten today with a massive headache. Go back to sleep, hoping it will go away. Wake up again at 1 and it’s still there. Lay in bed for awhile. Had drunk a couple bottles of whine while making a run at the Sunday Million on Poker Stars. This was also after having 2 glasses of wine before dinner at a cafe and a beer with my wonderful a Indian feast. I got back into this zone that I used to haven in tourneys, when I was In Milan. Almost everytime I’ve… Continue
Added by Ry on August 10, 2010 at 2:12am —
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A seat opens up outside and I move from my perch at the bar and take it. Sit down next to a reasonably handsome man in his early 40’s. He’s alone also, drinking beer and smoking cigarettes. We sit there quietly, alone, drinking, smoking. I’d like to talk to him. I realize that I must make the effort, to reach out, otherwise I’ll just be left chasing Gore Vidal’s in the the sky. He orders another beer from the garcon. I take another wine. Finally I make a move asking him… Continue
Added by Ry on August 9, 2010 at 3:44am —
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I call the consulate and my passport application is still under review. What??? The broad had said that it would be available today, monday at the latest. The frog on the phone says to call back Monday. Awesome. My mother sent me money yesterday. I knew if i didn’t get my passport today, that i’d be able to make it to monday on the few money I have. But now I’m not holding my hopes up that it will even be available monday. Tuesday I need to have 800 euro to pay for my… Continue
Added by Ry on August 8, 2010 at 12:31am —
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Ok, the roll is on the way up, now looking up to 10NL hopefully quite soon. Been playing 5NL recently, have made the transition to 6max and the whole thing's been going quite smoothly. By smoothly, I mean, I'm making profit, which I expect to increase quite a lot as soon as varience evens out, managed to only finish ($5 down after getting hit for $20 for set over set and KK vs AA in a session, although not playing deep would reduce my varience, and lost $10 in QQ vs AA and QQ vs KK the night…
She sits down in the front row. I am about 10 rows behind on the aisle, as is par, for the benefit of my giraffe legs. When she was passing me, or about to pass me, before I even turn to look, I have a weird sensation. Like a friend or someone I knew was sneaking up behind me and about to try and startle me. My eyes follow her down to her seat. Her head begins turning. She is going to look back. She feels my gaze. But she stops herself. I knew her. I had known her. I… Continue
Added by Ry on August 7, 2010 at 2:39am —
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As soon as my friend Roger heard about my lost passport and money predicament he offered to send me money. As much as i needed. My mom would do it in a second but I didn't want her to know about this. I didn’t want her to worry about me, and I also didn’t want to hear any lectures. So Roger offered and I accepted. I just got off the phone with him. He wanted to know when I was going to pay him back. He didn’t want the money transferred to him on a poker site, which i… Continue
Added by Ry on August 6, 2010 at 8:49am —
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So today was a big rollercoaster for me...as u can see from my last blog i had big downswing went down to 5.27 , now after a few good runs i`m back on track with 12.85$. I could be more up but had a few bad beats and suck outs on the bubble AGAIN so...
GL guys!
Added by NewStar1992 on August 6, 2010 at 2:38am —
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So last night was 'bubble night' has like 80% deep runs always finishing 10tish something like that : 9th 11th 12th14th 13th and all of it was in row ! down to 5.27...
GL!
Added by NewStar1992 on August 5, 2010 at 1:00pm —
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